Fragments of a Perfect Whole: NaPoWriMo2020, Day 13


Maple tree budding against an ever changing sky.

Monday Morning Musings:

“It seems impossible that their calm should ever return or that we should ever compose from their fragments a perfect whole or read in the littered pieces the clear words of truth.”

–Virginia Woolf, To the Lighthouse


The world seems broken–

fragments scattered on the winds

that howl, looking for a place of calm,

I’m looking for that place of calm,

the hope left behind in the jar.


This week has lasted for years

my brother’s birthday came

and went,

passed over

in this time of plagues–

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still we cooked and ate

and celebrated through screens

the holiday,

a remembrance of slavery and freedom

the bitter and the sweetness



of life

full of opposites, sometime topsy-turvy

like a puddle-world–

the sun illuminating rippling trees

but only at the right angle


After the storm–a world in a puddle


can you see it

before it’s gone–

and where does that world go?

Added to our memories,

a transitory moment of joy


I find them in nature

like the Romantics, I’m looking

seeing daffodils, rainbows, and revolution,

the world changing minute by minute

as clouds drift together and apart

and trees reach up to touch them

I stand and watch them

see them float by

in a corona sky



And now, I’m waiting

for the storm to pass

for the scent of bright green grass

carried on a soft spring breeze

along with sound of the robin’s trill


and the sparrow’s twitter

the blue jay’s squawk

the chickadee’s peep

the titmouse’s call

and the mockingbird singing them all


in a chorus of sound

fragments of a perfect whole

littered pieces of truth,

scattered and sublime,

simple and somehow profound.



Delaware River, West Deptford, NJ


I’m counting this as my NaPoWriMo poem today because I don’t know if I’ll be able to write another, and we may lose power. We’re supposed to have storms with damaging winds today. My mother is sick. My cat is sick and won’t eat.  We did have two virtual Passover dinners. I”m having a problem uploading the photos, so the slide show is a compilation. The second one was a Seder hosted by our older daughter that included her friends from all over the country and outside the U.S., too. But. . .last week seemed to go on forever. It’s early morning, and I already want this day to be over.


Merril’s Movie Club: Two totally different movies on Netflix. Tigertail (NOT Tiger King) is a moving story of a Taiwanese man who seeks the American dream. He remembers the dreams he had and the joy he used to experience as he tries to build a relationship with his grown daughter. One review I saw called it elegiac. It’s in Mandarin, Taiwanese, and English.

The Girl with All the Gifts is also remarkably moving–for a zombie movie. There are some new twists in this zombie tale where some children, the second generation afflicted by the zombie fungal disease, are sort of hybrid creatures. Sennia Nanua who plays the main character, Melanie, is excellent.








38 thoughts on “Fragments of a Perfect Whole: NaPoWriMo2020, Day 13

  1. Here’s hoping for better days ahead. I’ve read To the Lighthouse but don’t remember those spectacular lines. Thank you, Merril, for sharing your bumpy ride this week and pushing through all this, some I can relate to. Better days ahead . . .

    I especially enjoyed the slide show. =)

    • I found the lines on Brainpickings, so now I need to reread it, too. Doug’s taking Mickey to the animal ER. I hope there will be better days–right now, it’s looking worse.

  2. There’s a restlessness that has set in for me too. A month gone, with barely a few hours outside these two rooms. Truth is indeed littered in the wind today, and who will be able to put the pieces back together again. Sending all best xoK

  3. I’m sorry to hear you’re having a rough time, Merril. I hope this week gives you moments of joy that will get you through this challenging time. I had one this morning when despite the strong winds, I spotted a little hummingbird taking a sip from our feeder. ❤

  4. May moments of joy break through every now and then Merril. Be safe in approaching storms. I wish your mother and cat well. Your photos are lovely. ‘Unorthodox’ is a 4 episode series that is brilliant.

  5. The thing is, during this crazy, surreal time; we KNOW we are not alone. We are all feeling some level of imbalance and most of us are looking for moments of joy to make this time endurable. Wishing for you and yours moments of calm during this unpredictable storm!

    • Thank you, Marie. Yesterday sucked. Our Mickey is gone. The animal hospital let us be with him. My mom has tested positive, so who knows what will happen with that? She’s seems OK for now. I did go out and took more puddle and reflection photos early this morning.

      • Oh, my heart breaks to hear that Mickey is gone. He was such a beautiful kitty, very photogenic. I’m so glad you were able to be with him. And your mom … what a world of hurt you are in. I hope she stays okay and that someday soon you can see her, even if you have to suit up in full surgical gear. Take care, Merril. Love you.

  6. I’m looking for that place of calm,

    the hope left behind in the jar.

    What a phrase ❤ Take care, and I hope everything is all right – is your cat better? I hope the power doesn't go out and that your mom gets well soon.

    • Thanks so much, Shuku. My mom has tested positive, and she’s in a nursing home. . .she seems to be OK. But poor Mickey is no longer with us. Yesterday was just an all-around horrible day. I’m still crying about Mickey, but today is better–it’s sunny and the birds are singing. (Mickey is the white cat that you may have seen in some of my posts.)

  7. I hope the winds didn’t do too much damage up your way or knock out your power. I hope your mother is better today, and that the cat is well, too. I hope that you’ve found a bit of calm now that the storms have passed.

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