Suspended

Monday Morning Musings:

Suspended

“There are years that ask questions and years that answer.”
–Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God

“We hope. We despair. We hope. We despair. This is what governs us. We have a bipolar system.”
Maira Kalman, And the Pursuit of Happiness

Clouds upon clouds—
an enigma wrapped in mystery,
we follow the clues
but find more questions.

What I mean to say,
is that I—we—are suspended
halfway to here or there

uncertain if we are rising or falling,
like astronauts in zero G
seeking up

or down, confused. The moon floats on the water,
unconcerned geese swim over it, but

another whale is beached, I read,
and I wonder if it, too, was lost,
coordinates off, communications broken–

and now the birds, first indicators.
Perhaps it was always about the birds—
the devilish bones and death rattles of dinosaurs
in their past, they soared into the future,
the evolution of unfurled feathers flapping,
vagabonds of time, soaring

out of the fog, I hear geese honk,
a blue jay squawks–not yet,
a gull laughs.
I walk on. Hoping.

I used some of Jane’s Random Words for this poem.

It already seems a long time since the start of the year. We saw more family members last Monday for brunch, and then met dear friends on Wednesday for a lovely lunch at a Chinese/Japanese restaurant. The temperature was in the 60s that day. Such weird weather—warm, foggy, and then more wintry temperatures over the weekend.

A strange week all around, including the spectacle in our House of Representatives, where it took Kevin McCarthy 15 votes and countless concessions to the right-wing extremists to become Speaker. What a contrast between the mess of the GOP and the unanimous vote by the Democrats for minority leader Hakeem Jeffries. He is quite an orator (Google his name and Alphabet speech if you missed it).

We watched several different types of mysteries this week—so there is a theme here.

Three Pines (Amazon Prime), series inspired by Louise Penny’s books. I’ve read some of the books in her wonderful series, but my husband hasn’t. We both enjoyed the TV series very much. I think Alfred Molina did a great job in portraying Chief Inspector Armand Gamache. This TV series focused on how indigenous people have been treated in Canada. It is darker than the novels, and the magic and warmth of Three Pines itself is not there the way it is in the books, but it is still an excellent series.

The Pale Blue Eye (Netflix) is a solid B movie. It’s a murder mystery with twists set in the winter of 1830 at West Point. Cadet Edgar Allan Poe helps the investigator brought in to solve the mystery of who killed a cadet. It was a good Friday night movie.

Decision to Leave (in theaters and rental) is South Korea’s entry for the 2022 Academy Awards. We both really liked this one, though probably I did more. I’m still thinking about it. It is a twisty tale of murder and romantic obsession with the noirish theme of the male police detective who falls for the beautiful female suspect. Both wonderfully acted. The cinematography/editing is brilliant with the camera giving viewers different points of view and lingering on certain shots.

I’ve recently read and enjoyed two novels:
Joanna Quinn, The Whalebone Theater
Kate Quinn, The Diamond Eye

I don’t know if these two authors are related, but there was a throwaway line in The Whalebone Theater that alluded to the main character in The Diamond Eye, a Russian woman who became a sniper in WWII.

20 thoughts on “Suspended

  1. Powerful poem, Merril, and beautiful photos. Nature is my guide these days. I’m always brought back to beauty, truth, and awe.

  2. “suspended
    halfway to here or there . . .”

    These lines evoke emotions of uncertainty I sometimes feel, like the sensation of being “stalled,” halfway between here and there, unable to move forward.

    I remember the quote from Zora Neale Hurston when I taught the novel you quoted. Right now I’m reading “Now is Not the Time to Panic,” a New York Times best-seller. I haven’t gotten far enough into it to know whether I agree with all the hype or not.

    • Thank you so much, Marian.
      I’m sort of feeling the world is stalled right now.
      I don’t know the book you’re reading, but thank you for sharing. I hope you end up enjoying it. (I generally just go into the library and browse.)

    • Hope is necessary, I agree.
      I understand. I’m almost always awake around 5 AM, so I can’t stay up late either. We had a movie date in the afternoon to watch Decision to Leave. I would not have made it through at night. 😅

  3. Beautifully written, Merril. It does feel like we are in limbo. Is it the time of year or just all the stuff going on/not going on around us?

    I was considering Three Pines; now I will go for it 🙂

    • Thank you very much, Dale! I think it’s maybe a combination–the time of year, everything going on, COVID, . . .

      I really love her books, but I liked the show, too, even if it’s different.

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