A twig snaps. Is that young backpacker following me?
I turn, but no one is there. I go back to my hotel, noting everything and everyone, like a cat alert and waiting to leap. Trust no one, I think. I mention to the hotel clerk that I’m off to Avignon to visit an aunt. I take a taxi to the train station, then from there, another taxi to the airport. I book a flight to Bonn; using an alias, I book another flight to London to gather more puzzle pieces, hoping for a fit.
On the plane, I think of how I once jumped, freefalling in space, in time. I sit thousands of feet above the sea remembering. How much I thought was true was not. Can one love an enigma? Enigma. Paul. Something he said on the cliffs. What was it?
I’m hosting dVerse today. My prompt is “In space in time I sit thousands of feet above the sea” from May Sarton’s poem,”Meditation in Sunlight”
This is a continuation of my spy series. The first line was the last line in the previous episode, which you can read here.
Detail of Four Seasons Mosaic by Marc Chagall in Chicago
The Songs: Sun, Moon, Earth
1. She rises for others, but never as for us– a long-bowed cello note sustained as she wakes, red-breasted, timpani beat the rhythm of the day, joined by bird-flutes and wind-harps while she dresses in gold, she spins light in contrapuntal streams with shadow rhythm. Our own star, crowned giver of life and death.
2.
The moon sings with silvery voice, her soft hums become operatic arias. Though on her arid surface, men stood, and watched the Earth rise. Still, but not silent, no mere satellite, she demands the spotlight shine on her. Owl-hoots, wolf-howls, rustles of restless night creatures are percussion to her melody. But in the morning, she smiles as three crows call, the trees wave, and the birds sing her a lullaby.
3.
And here- we rotate, revolve, reflect in repeated reverberations— Earth has its own music, sea-sighs and deep-belly rumbles, bird-tweets and dog barks, baby-giggles, and lovers’ moans. Bangs and bombs, birth cries and death-rattles. But listen as a rooftop fiddler plays all the color, all the light– the songs of earth, moon, sun, and stars.
For dVerse. Laura asked us to write poems with three separate stanzas using one of her word choices. Sun, Moon, Earth was the only one that really appealed to me.
early in February—this year the purple crocuses yawned and showed us golden teeth, this year, the daffodils joined them in unexpected yellow against the bluest sky, and ignored Winter’s frost-breath. A last gasp? Uncertain, we watch the feathered-clouds fly this year, any year.
follow the light within the feathered beats of moon song, a mockingbird sings of love and hope, between the full moon and the new, an eternity passes
At dVerse Open Link Night we are remembering Glenn Buttkus, who died last month. This is a poem I wrote just a few days after my mom died in 2020 in the first COVID wave. The human world was shuttered and silent, but spring just kept going on. Here, I’ve paired it with Kerfe’s exquisite Owl Moon. You can read the original post here.
Pondering, you recollect the past, its sweat-stained shirts and hulking monoliths– describe the bells so that we hear the tintinnabulation, the bell-swell, clapper-clang, ding-dong, soul-singing
ring across the hills and plains across the years—construe what’s false or true. You, Writer, make a city rise and fall. Create a giant, defiant but literate, stormy as a cloud–
wonder aloud, grapple for answers based in knowledge— a girl, a famine, misogyny, religion— the thousand indecisions,
the visions — life and death and forgotten facts buried in earth and under snow, but know, like the snowbells, they rise and ring,
and like the robins they sing, a song takes flight, their wings catch the light and a tale rises from the dust, because it must, a wonder of sorrow, regret, love, or glory–
Once upon a time. . .imagine. You tell the story.
I revised this poem from last Monday’s musings and added the audio. You can read more about the inspiration and see more photos here. I’m sharing this with dVerse Open Link Night.
Dante Gabriel Rossetti, “Two Lovers,”(1850) Pen and Ink with brown wash on paper
All is Fair in Love
Paul and I saw the pink rose painted on a wall. I remember the slow grin that lit up his tired face, just starting to look gaunt, as we all were.
“It’s you,” he said, “Beauty-with-thorns.”
Now as I’m searching for Paul, that rose has reappeared. It can’t be a coincidence. I feel like I’m being led with breadcrumbs, and I know the path may lead to a beast, not a prince. Yet, even with the risks, I can’t stop.
Is love or war fair? Who were you, Paul? Was it all a game? Every year I think, this year’s a different thing. I’ll not think of you with longing—or regret. But how do I banish a past so full of questions? How do I banish thoughts of you without some answers–?
A twig snaps. Is that young backpacker following me?